raison d'etre(chapter 1: Scornful Eyes)

That day, September 18, 2009, the date that I will never forget in my life. It was the day when we moved to Burnsville. When we arrived, I tried to look back on the path we passed by, hoping that I can still see the buildings and the houses of my old town. I already missed my bestfriend, Kyle. Kyle and I were the best friends since we're eight, we were on each others side, so it was hard for the two of us to be separated. We bade our goodbyes on the airport and promised to keep in touch.

We reached Burnsville at past 5pm, so the sun was preparing to set --my first sunset on Burnsville-- it was marvelous and at the same time, the sun looks sad? I don't know, maybe it's just my emotions.

"Alexis, please go to the nearest grocery and buy some stock of food and utility items," my gentle mom said, handing me the grocery money.

"Sure thing," I said and started to go in my skateboard.

I heard mom shouted, "be back soon! Ask directions!" Yes, I'm new, but finding the grocery isn't a worry, I know my insticts and sense of direction.

I headed on an alley as a shortcut. And discovered the way to the grocery store.

When I reached the grocery store, I bought all the things and food mom asked. There were so many people on the store, and there were a very long line in the counters so it took me long to finish grocery.

It was dark already, I started to go back home in my skateboard.

I used my newly discovered shortcut, the alley, to my way home.

But as I entered the alley, the incident that changed my whole life started...

That night, I felt the cold breeze of the wind that gave shivers through-out my body. I was frozen. There, I saw the thing I've never imagine to exist, the hunter, holding it's lifeless prey, bloodless it may seemed. As I stared at the beautiful face of the hunter, I stepped forward but, I then stopped upon meeting his eyes, it was a beautiful ebony eyes filled with thirst, anger and disgust...

His angelic face from before was now... scary and dangerous. I felt danger and, at the same time, I felt an assurance of safety. Weird.

"Who are you?" the hunter asked in his velveteen voice with a taste of anger and disgust.

I felt dizzy like I was running out of oxygen. But seconds after he had asked, he left in a blur, and in that moment, I was alone in the dark alley, his lifeless prey was there, left lying on the floor.

I felt confused and out of control, I hurriedly ride on my skateboard and started to go, passing on the dead body, leaving it behind, feeling so scared, I didn't think right for not even calling for help.

As soon as I was home, I put down the groceries on the floor and went straight to my room, ignoring my worried mom. I lay my body in the bed, I already fell asleep. I was too tired -- and scared.

The next day, I woke up in a refresh, thinking that I had the weirdest and scariest dream. After taking a bath and fixing myself I went down and headed for the kitchen to eat breakfast.
"Are you ok, baby?" my mom asked while she was placing my juice on the table.

"Of course, mom." I assured, unknown what is the assurance for.

I went to my school --my new school-- I already missed the first week of class, so I know I have to catch up with the lessons, not good. I am not good in academics. My bestfriend, Kyle, used to tutor me especially in Math, but now that I'm away from him, I have no one to patiently help me in surviving my studies. I guess, I have to study on my own and eat more peanuts.
My school was big, and when I told the schoolguard that I'm new,he actually gave me a school map!

I was late already when I came here to school and student's were on the classrooms already so the hallway was cleared and silent. I stuck my face in the mao, searching my classroom when suddenly I crashed onto someone and my map fell.

"Oops, sorry." I picked up my map not even bothering to look to the person whom I bumped to. That person didn't speak and started walking away as I picked up my books. I started to duck my map again and started to find again my designated classroom.

After some few steps forward, I heard someone spoke coming from my back, "Who are you?"
The voice was familiar to me, I heard it from my nightmare? I turned around and found no one, even the person I bumped on was gone already. I felt goosebumps. I shook my head to remove it and started to walk again. After many minutes, I finally reached my classroom but the class was about to end. I should have just used my insticts and sense of direction rather than the map. I can never trust myself on maps.

"Ms. Heather, finally, you came." my chemistry teacher, whose name is Mr. Hudson, as I remember on my schedule pad, greeted me sarcastically, "I thought you were going to cut classes on your very first day."

"I'm sorry sir for being late." The bell rang, I felt embarrassed especially when students laughed.
"Just meet you tomorrow." Mr. Hudson said. Students on the room headed for their next classes, I laso went out but I just laid my back on the wall outside next to the classroom door, sighing. I've just found my chemistry class and it had already ended and now, I have to search again for my next class.

There where no more students from the classroom passing out the door. "I better start to search for my next class or I'll end up..."

"Cutting classes?" someone continued what I'm about to say. I looked ar a girl on the door beside me. I was an inch taller than her, she looks elegant in her above-the-knee blue skirt, pink blouse with ribboned-lace on each side of it's bottom, and gold-colored doll shoes with laces wrapped around her legs. She was carrying a cute bunny backpack and two books on her hands. Her hair was a shoulder-legth glossy blonde which was groomed with a red ribbon tied on few parts of her hair on each sides. She has those ebony eyes which appeared sad eventhought she was smiling cheerfully.

"Well... yeah... I might end up cutting classes again if I couldn't find the next classroom right away." I admitted shyly.

"Well then," I was surprised when she held my hand, "I'll lead you the way."

I told her my next class was geometry and luckily we are the same. She seems so friendly. We introduced ourselves to each other and I knew her name was Selene Blanchard. I really felt self-conscious beside her, it was like santan placed next to a rose. And I was the santan.

On lunch time, Selene invited me to join me to join her friends on the table. I was flattered. Selene introduced me to her friends and they gave Selene a scrutinizing look. Their eyes flashed to me and then ignored me. I felt embarrassed. Selene told me to have a seat, she was still smiling as if she wasn't given a scrutinizing look from her friends. Her friends were all beautiful creatures but as I've thought, they were all snobs. Of course, Selene was an exception.

While we are eating, another peer of beautiful creatures entered the cafeteria. Wouldn't this school run out of dashing peoples?

But then, my amazement turned to horror when the last person with that peer entered the cafeteria. It was not because he was not as beautiful as the others, infact he was the most beautiful creature breathing inside the cafeteria. It was because he was the beautiful hunter from my nightmare!

I remove my eyes onto him when our eyes met. I was afraid and I think Slene noticed my uneasiness.

"Alexis?" Selene asked worriedly, "Is something wrong?"

"N..nothing.." everything, I wanted to say. My nightmare was just inside the room where I was.

"I have to go now."

"But you aren't finish eating..."

"I'm full already..." I stood up, "Bye, I'll go to my next class, see ya tomorrow."

"Ok. Bye."

I hurriedly went to the cafeteria door, I can feel two scornful eyes eyeing my back until I was out. I felt relieved when I got out of the cafeteria.

I went to my next class.

The whole afternoon was fine, he was not in any of my class.
I went to the comfort room before I go home. I fixed my black wavy long hair into it's usual style --ponytail. After that, I washed my hands when suddenly, my beaded bracelet clasp into pieces. I picked up the beads on the wash tub.

"Weird, I love this bracelet. What a pity." I said to myself. Why did my bracelet suddenly broke into pieces? Would something bad will happen?

I shook my head with the thoughts and heade to the door, leaving th comfort room empty. As I open the door, to my surprise, he was just in front of me, holding the door of the boy's restroom.
We were both in shocked, he was the first one to recover when his ebony eyes turned to hate-filled one.

It was so fast, in a second, we were both on the empty girl's comfort room, the door locked, he was standing an inch in front of me, still looking at me scornfully. He stepped forward, and I automatically stepped backward. I am afraid that he'll get near me, I wanted to scream but my voice seems not to participate.

"Who are you?" his same question on the same tone. I tried to speak but apparently I closed my mouth, unable to answer.

"Speak!" he saud in a high ordering tone. He started to step forward slowly, every step he makes is equal to every step I do backwards until there was no more space for me to step backward. I was trapped, he harshly placed his hands on the wall in between me.

For the first time, I saw his face so near, even with those scary eyes, his face was so gorgeous, just like an angel's. I felt like I stopped breathing when he slowly bent his head closer to my face and his lips met mine. I felt afraid and at the same time, I was enjoying the kiss. It was passionate. But, I don't know to myself why tears fell from my eyes. I don't know why I am crying.

He stopped kissing me and I heard him growl. "Why can't I hurt you inspite of what you've done to me?!" His voice was like in pain, but what did I do to him?

"Why did you come back, you should be dead! Don't ever show your face to me! I don't want to see you again!" he said then, he left so fast leaving me confused and hurt with his last two sentence. What does he mean that I came back? I've never been in this town before. And should I be dead? What the heck!

--------------♥♥♥ a lot of Thank you to my classmate John Paul for editing this...♥♥♥----------------------------

Raison d'etre

Preface

No one can guess how are life will turn out in the future or how it would end...

But in my life, I never thought I would be like that. I was surprise to know that in the world I live, is full of deception and then when this deceptions are revealed to me, my whole path was changed.

If I never known this secret, I will never be part of this, never be part of danger. But I never regret this, because if I haven't discovered the secret, I will never be part of him. Knowing the secret is knowing him and knowing him is knowing the reason for my existence.

I felt like I was the happiest person in the world but of course, life is always balanced, when you felt happiness, the next thing is sorrow.

Up to now, I believed that the greatest hate, bears from the greatest love.

my story

hello. I'm currently writing a story about a human-vampire love.
I've written some chapters already but i'm not yet at the half of it.

this is the title: "raison d'etre"


Here's a summary for my story:(it's not yet a permanent summary)

Rayne is new to this town and when one night she took groceries and she walked back home in a dark alley, there she saw a creature she never knew existed which is holding it's lifeless prey. Instead of attacking, the creature fled away but left her with a scary disgusted stare. She tought of it as a nightmare in her sleep. On her first day in school, she saw 'him', the creature from last night, in their school cafeteria. Things got more complicated when she fell inlove with this creature and vice-versa. Vincent, her love, a vampire. Selene, her bestfriend, a vampire. What would she do if those two important people in her life wasnt the only vampires? And when falling inlove with a vampire gives trouble to her and to her Vincent? And what if one day, she despised the vampires especially her love, would she try to kill them, kill Vincent?


That's the summary, well, it isnt the permanent one yet. And also the names arent permanent too, it's just temporary.


Please, help me in writing my story. Give me suggestions. I need names of characters and places in my story.


Please and thank you. :)